Over the past year I have lost about 30 pounds. Most days I think I look pretty good.
But every morning the girl who stares back at me from the mirror is also the same girl who's husband looked at porn on line for one third of their marriage.
So despite countless hours of therapy, despite logic, friends, advantages, talent, a kind and loving heart, despite the years that have passed, I still look at that girl in the mirror and wonder from the depths of my soul, why she wasn't enough.
People are going to have problems whether you are around or not. Our victimhood lies in the fact that we happened to be around when their pain was expressed.
ReplyDeleteMost of our dysfunctional behaviors occur because we are ineffectively dealing with our own pain. Don't assume dysfunctional behavior in others is your fault. All our actions are ultimately our responsibility. You have no control over what others do.
For whatever stupid reason no one is EVER good enough when a guy is addicted to pornography. Take it from a guy that has struggled with a pornography addiction for over 12 years. I have a beautiful wife who loves me and satisfies me in every way imaginable more often than other couples I know, and I STILL have looked at porn during our marriage.
ReplyDeleteI can't explain it. It's something about the way the brain is wired in the male gender. It sucks! And some guys struggle with it more than others. IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!!!
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Thank you each for your comments. The point I was trying to make is that the brain and the heart are separate organs.
ReplyDeleteHere's hoping that one day soon, you'll be able to see that the girl in the mirror was enough... :-\
ReplyDeleteThe lady in the mirror was not the problem, regardless of her weight. I know her to be a wonderfully loving, beautiful human being.
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