Friday, June 3, 2011

It Will Arrive

Monday the sixth I'll have been married 30 years. Just twenty when I made this life altering decision. I wasn't that different than most of my contemporaries. Had a large church wedding, a poofy eighties wedding gown and a cake that partially fell over.

Most likely Monday will arrive as it did 30 years ago. Hot and sunny. I'll be there too-what remains of me.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

You've Got Mail

I knew an older gentleman who didn't quite get that newfangled thing called email. He asked once "How do they know when to send it?" I laughed then and occasionally still smile when I think about it. Tonight, though, I'm thinking about a similar thing on a scale so grand as to be incomprehensible. I've heard and read a lot about all events unfolding in their perfect time. To some that is as strange a concept as email was to my friend. It does make me wonder. Waiting around for the perfect unfolding could be one's life work. And maybe it is at that. Except I'd replace waiting around for calmly observing. Or as the therapist says, surfing.

I am a Capricorn. We are a hardworking, practical bunch. We thrive on charging ahead, solving problems, assuming leadership. There is not a lot of calmly observing in that. So embracing this concept has, and is, requiring a different mind set that is a work in progress. And therein lies the problem. Checklists, notes, organizational tools and calendars really don't have a place in embracing calmly observing. All it takes is intent. Which is way too simple for me to grasp most days. Remember I like to make things complicated.

Perfect unfolding. It means you are in the right place at the right time, always. It means everything that you do has a plan, a purpose. It means that no time is wasted as it too played a part in perfection. It means that no matter how much you desire to effect events you must, instead. calmly observe them as they unfold- trusting.  I don't think this means that a person can't have preferences or other intentions. These things, too, are part of the perfect unfolding. So what you want, the way you want it plays its part as well.

Imagine this to be true for everyone. Everything we know and everything we don't. This is where being on a scale so grand as to be incomprehensible comes in. How do we grasp a concept this big with such profound implications for our lives? As with most things you must start small. Think of a time when things just worked out. All the pieces came together in just such a way to work out. Coincidence, magic, luck? It has been called many names but what it is is the perfect unfolding. The teaching of this concept has been going on in my life for a long time. Remember Capricorns are stubborn. I just have trouble accepting that all is well. I keep thinking this life requires so much more than I have contributed to it. That I need to be doing more, being more, effecting more.

The universe does not need my help despite my inclinations towards organizing and alphabetizing. It just needs my intent. Again, way too simple right? But I've noticed that truth is simple. That perfection is always in front of us no matter what we are looking at. That life is a miracle in its perfect unfolding.

Which brings us back to the original question "how do they know when to send it?"