Friday, January 13, 2012

1/14/2012

My eyes are just brown. //
I don't see what you see. //
When you look at me. //

Why oh why oh why //
Have you dipped your toe into //
This cold, icy stream? //

I am suspicious //
Of any good in my world //
How effed up is that? //

I'd do most anything //
For you, him, her, it and them. //
Who is missing here? //

I don't always know //
What the fuck I'm afraid of //
I just know that I am. //

If I was not here //
Would breeze carry the fragrance, //
Of roses on my grave? //

If I choose to hurt //
I must be one stupid broad //
With one broken heart //

In the midst of all //
My loneliness is increased //
Exponentially //
I am so good at //
Asking  pertinent questions //
Too good I've been told //

I want to argue //
With all the wise, learned folk //
As they light the way //

Sometimes we make sense //
Sometimes I'm convinced of crazy //
Yet you still remain //

Your unintended //
Arrows are still as sharp as those //
Aimed with ill intent  //

Heart sinking feeling //
To realize my bondage //
Is all about me //

You participate, //
In my self imposed silence //
I pound on the glass. //

The Me who is I //
Was never enough. Upshot? //
You did not know ME //

Variations on //
the same theme really serve //
Only to derail //

How do you handle //
Envy from others?
Awkward. //
They see outwardly. //

One thing that's bogus. //
Help isn't just around the corner. //
Winging it alone. //

The distance may not //
be mediated by unions //
We aren't unionized. //

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