Wednesday, October 26, 2011

And So Will I

Lately this blog has been about answering the questions Who Am I and What Am I. These questions were brought to my attention again today so on October 26, 2011 here are my answers. I doubt this is complete. So the blog will go on. And so will I.


Who I am: I am a woman who has some experience of life.
I am a seeker of more life experience.
I am kind hearted, fun and ornery.
I am honest to a fault.
I am caring and love to organize!
I am a questioner and a considerer.
I am creative.
I am some one who deals with depression.
I am a good friend, a good mother and at one time I thought I was a good spouse.
I am not perfect.
I am loving.

What I am:
I am a human being.
I believe that I am a part of a divine intelligence/being.
I am a woman.
I am worthy of all good things by divine right.
I don't always remember that but I do believe it is true.

These are my truths.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Lit From Within

Thinking, thinking. And yet more thinking. A thought that might surprise readers of this blog. I 'am' happier than this time last year. I have made positive progress from this time last year on several fronts. Therapy with a therapist who suits me (but does not coddle) has helped me not to feel alone. A patient, ardent, sweet someone special has switched on an inner light long dimmed. Children, healthy and happy are any Mother's joy. Recently I have set some goals for myself with regard to my art. I am busy meeting those goals and having a little faith in myself. Happiness is an emotion I haven't spent a lot of time with. But I want to. And I intend to. There will be jogs from this path but on this, the occasion of my older son's birthday, I am focusing on the light within.

Monday, October 17, 2011

You Don't Know Jack

I told someone things feel shaky. You know what I mean. You are climbing the beanstalk, holding on for all you are worth and some Yayhoo thinks its funny to
grab the stalk (while on the ground) and shake! You are too far up to deal with the Yayhoo though you'd dearly love to. There is nothing to do but hang on.
That's the visual. Hanging on.

You are scared of heights so the only option is to continue looking upwards and keep on climbing. Because looking down causes panic to rise up.
Climbing, climbing till finally you stop to catch your breath. You look around and realize that even if you are still precariously far from the ground and you can't even see to the top of the stalk, that where you've stopped to catch your breath is an okay place to be. It's just you and the stalk, but so far so good. For all of you climbing your beanstalks if things get shaky-hang on. And then keep on climbing.