Monday, September 14, 2009

Acceptance Week

I told someone today that this is my acceptance week. I don't know what this means to you. But to me it is hard work and a process. I have to accept me. I have to get rid of all exterior voices and only listen for my own. The "shoulds" have been a curse my whole life.

I should do this, I should do that, I should be this, I should be that. Somehow I've always believed I was not enough in any capacity. I really, truly hope this isn't true. Everywhere I look, read or be I am bombarded by demands that I have goals, work toward those goals and achieve those goals.

I am ashamed to tell you that sometimes my entire goal for the day is just to get through it.
Would I be here if I had had some foresight about where I am today and what I've been through?
I don't know.